20 things I know now that I wish I knew 10 years ago

January 30, 2008 | filed under consider this, moment of truth, thoughts | 2 Comments 

Great words…

January 30, 2008 | filed under health, moment of truth, pay attention, rewritable words | 1 Comment 

Buddha’s Secret to Health

Fear, the Great Destructor

January 26, 2008 | filed under consider this, inspiring, pay attention | 1 Comment 

I’m finally willing to admit–or readmit–how big of a role I let fear play in my life.  It’s disgusting.  It’s self-sabotage.  It’s half-hearted living that’s ultimately nonsensical.

Does it make any sense, however subconsciously, to fulfill my prophecy of being unfulfilled and alone simply to validate my fear and loneliness? Or to love half-heartedly out of fear of how things will end up? Not in the least.

Nothing is guaranteed.  What you put in, you get out.  Half-hearted efforts will never produce maximal results.

What would you do if you weren’t afraid?

If I honestly answer this question, it’s apparent just how afraid I really am.

What’s the worst that could happen?

If I honestly answer this question, it’s apparent how full of crap I am for succumbing to my fears.

“Fuck the bullshit
Whether from the hill or from the pulpit”
-Saul Williams, “Scared Money” from The Inevitable Rise and Liberation of Niggy Tardust

We can give our power to our fears or we can give it to our hopes.  Why do I so strongly believe that the worst will come from walking my path or from truly falling into love, especially when I’ve yet to really try it?

If you allow obstacles to remain obstacles, you’re stopping yourself.  Stop. Now go.

Life is full of verbs

January 22, 2008 | filed under consider this, moment of truth | Leave a Comment 

I’m frequently a talker, working on being a doer.  Gotta get to getting.

What My World Sounds Like: Susie Suh

January 19, 2008 | filed under listen, what my world sounds like | Leave a Comment 

Susie Suh

I’ve just found out about this woman and her music. This album came out in 2005, so I am kind of disappointed that I just caught wind of it. The sincerity of his voice, the feeling, the depth…goodness.

The song I can’t stop listening to right now is “Light on My Shoulder.” It’s simple and magnificent and I can hardly finish the song before I start it over again.

It’s easy to fall and harder to stand
It’s easy to cry and harder to laugh,
And I don’t know how, I don’t know why
But you’re the light on my shoulder
When I’m tired
It’s easy to run and harder to be still
It’s easy to think and harder to feel,
And I don’t know how, I don’t know why
But you’re the light on my shoulder
When I’m tired
It’s easy to hide and harder to trust
It’s easy to hate and harder to love
And I don’t know how, I don’t know anything
But you’re the temper in my voice
When I sing

Rewriteable Words

January 18, 2008 | filed under consider this, do your research!, moment of truth, pay attention, rewritable words | 1 Comment 

I have to thank my zaftig vegan friend for this one. Thanks, Jasmin!

“Isn’t man an amazing animal? He kills wildlife by the millions to protect his domestic animals and their feed. Then he kills domestic animals by the billions and eats them. This in turn kills man by the millions, because eating all those animals leads to degenerative – and fatal – health conditions like heart disease, kidney disease, and cancer. So then man tortures and kills millions more animals to look for cures for these diseases. Elsewhere, millions of other human beings are being killed by hunger and malnutrition because food they could eat is being used to fatten domestic animals. Meanwhile, some people are dying of sad laughter at the absurdity of man, who kills so easily and so violently, and once a year sends out cards praying for “Peace on Earth.”
–C. David Coates

January 25th is Leandra Day

January 18, 2008 | filed under consider this, plain cool, random | 1 Comment 

I’ve decided to start a new holiday, my own personal holiday that you have the right to adopt yourself: Leandra Day.  It was a concept conceived out of a joke, but the great ideas don’t always start out so great or with you knowing how great they, in fact, are.  Alas, I give you Leandra Day.

On January 25th, show the people in your life that you love them however you choose to: a personal gift, with an explicit “I love you”, with your time, by sharing your God-given gifts with them…whatever you choose to do is fine as long as the clear root message is “I love you and I’m glad you’re in my life.” 

I’m going to come up with a fancy logo and banners and all.  Leandra Day.  What a wonderful way to spend your January 25th.  🙂

What My World Sounds Like: Saul Williams!

January 18, 2008 | filed under moment of truth, watch this, what my world sounds like | Leave a Comment 

Love, love, love Saul Williams!  This is the video to his single “Sunday, Bloody Sunday” off of his latest album The Inevitable Rise and Liberation of Niggy Tardust.  The addict from Season 1 of “The Wire” is in it too! (I just started watching the show because I feared I’d get addicted…and I have.)


January 18, 2008 | filed under thoughts | Leave a Comment 

stoicDictionary.com‘s word for today: stoic: Not affected by passion; being or appearing indifferent to pleasure or pain, joy or grief.

Right now, I feel so…blah.  My emotional force is so weak.  I’d just like to feel…something…preferably something positive, uplifting, joyous.  But, no.  Today’s word of the day is dead-on.  Stoic.


January 17, 2008 | filed under consider this, moment of truth, pay attention | Leave a Comment 

After looking for a job as a server for months, I finally got one last month.  The experience has been a ball of both met expectations and surprises.  It’s really a sort of human study.

In dealing with lots of people that act like jackasses towards their server, I’ve decided not to carry the burden of someone else’s negativity.  I used to walk away thinking “what an a**,” but I’m finding myself doing that less and less now that I’ve discovered a new strategy: prayer.

Instead of being upset by someone’s actions towards me that have nothing to do with me, I pray that they get the opportunity to see themselves and experience what they’re being.  I’m praying for their karma to come around.  It will anyway; it’s a universal law, but in addition to wanting them to experience what they are being, I want them to realize what they are being.

Self-awareness is such a gift and so important to our development and progress as people.  If you don’t know better, you can’t do better.

I seek to use all the opportunities in my life for growth.  Can I honestly say that I’m always successful?  Absolutely not, but I’m working on it.  Part of the working on it is being in tune to who and what I’m being and the impact that it has on others.

A few weeks ago, I was running late for work and walking expediently down the street to get there.  This kid–okay, young man–wanted to talk to me but not enough to speed up to walk with me.  He wanted me to stop.  First thing’s first: if I’m in a hurry and you want to talk to me–about anything–honor my speed and catch up or shut up.  He wanted to ask for my phone number, but instead of saying, “I’m not interested, I have a boyfriend,” I said, “I’m going to work.” 

What does that really mean to someone though?  Shortly after that interaction, I realized that I probably didn’t leave the most favorable impression and that if he felt some kind of way towards me or women he likened me to, I couldn’t really be mad–I helped to create that impression. 

So what am I saying?  We create the “monsters” in our society and will continue to until we realize that somewhere part of that monster exists in us.  Maybe not in its entirety, but along some lines, we can relate.  Until we recognize who and what we’re being, we’re doomed to continue down a path of self-righteousness, victimhood, and self-delusion.  And it ain’t worth it.

Seek to see yourself and pray for others that need to see themselves too.  In the process, you’ll free up some of your karmic debt.  Awesome.

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