The waiting game
At 12, I was sure I’d be rich at 25.Ã‚Â What I meant by rich was just loads of money.Ã‚Â Other than that, I had no clarity about my life–didn’t know where I wanted to live, how I wanted to spend my days, how I wanted to use my wealth; I just wanted money.Ã‚Â
Now I’m 25 and I certainly don’t have loads of money.Ã‚Â What went wrong?Ã‚Â I’d sometimes find myself a bit down because the wealth I imagined all throughout my youthÃ‚Â never made its appearance in my bank account, not even for a cameo.Ã‚Â Then I had to start looking at myself honestly:Ã‚Â if I can’t manage what I have now, how can I ever hope to have more?Ã‚Â
Perhaps I’m not ready for a lot of money yet.Ã‚Â Perhaps I need clarity…focus…a stronger connection spiritually.
The fact of the matter is, if I always look at myself through the perspective of where I think I should be, I’ll never be happy.Ã‚Â And where is this should coming from?Ã‚Â To whom does it belong?Ã‚Â Is it my ‘should’ or someone else’s?Ã‚Â If I believe que sera sera, then what is a ‘should’?
If I’m going to maintain extraordinary expectations of myself, I need to make sure that my actions are also extraordinary…and I need to be patient!Ã‚Â Great power given to the wrong people is a waste and so is great power given to the right people at the wrong time.