Challenge: Find the good in where you are

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Right now, I live in San Antonio. Been here for about seven months and can’t say that it’s been the most exciting time of my life. I can say that it’s been a very therapeutic time for me. Not too long ago, I realized that everywhere I’ve lived has served a different purpose for me, acted as a sort of theme, if you will. I was raised in St. Louis, which served as the framework for my understanding of the world. In Chicago, I really grew into my own. Became more of that which I already was. I moved to New York and really began to understand my work ethic. If I care, I’m all in. If I don’t, I’m pretty much out. The second time I was in Chicago was the most broke and probably depressing time of my life. I realized that I needed to make some changes. When I moved to California, I began to make some of those changes. Insights about my family structure of my childhood, or the lack thereof, became clear to me. Shortly thereafter, I moved to Philadelphia and the overarching theme of that period was love. L-O-V-E. As is the case with many relationships, my beau at the time served as a mirror for me, allowing me to see myself as I was and decide which changes I wanted to make. My time in Texas has been very introspective. Not a lot of activity, but necessarily so. I’m not sure I would’ve been able to grow the way I have in this time if I were in a city that really had my attention. So, yes, I’ve been ‘stranded’ on the West side of San Antonio, but I’m better because of my relatively dull evenings and weekends indoors.

Operating with the understanding of why I’m in Texas, in terms of the larger theme of healing, has been incredibly helpful. I no longer hate being here or think I made a mistake in moving here. Very often, we condemn parts of our lives because we don’t understand their purposes.  Everything can be used.  The good, the bad, and the ugly.  Meaning is never inherent; it’s always created.  Find the value in the experiences you’ve had and the experiences you’re having right now.  If you haven’t done this already, it will change the way you understand your world.

Find the good.

April 5, 2009 | filed under challenge, thoughts 

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4 Responses to “Challenge: Find the good in where you are”

  1. Speaks Beliefs on April 5th, 2009 10:11 pm

    The heart is a perfect illustration 4 this post. The realization that one must appreciate every stop on life’s journey equates to love. Once you come to this appreciation of life’s twists & turns, you begin to love each and every instance & nuance of the journey. Love opens the heart and allows many things in. Love, an emotion so strong that it ensures that moments be etched to memory. U are blessed. Not many people realize and appreciate the path laid b4 them. Continue as u take us along. As always, thanx 4 sharing.

  2. Leandra on April 5th, 2009 10:21 pm

    :) I think I’ve always been in love with love. The ideal. It was always so beautiful and enormous to me. The older I get, the more I understand life, the more I don’t understand life, the more I love love. The more I wish to live it out ideally.

    Throughout my life, purpose has been very important to me. I always need to know the why. If I don’t understand, trust that I will ask. If the answer isn’t delivered or doesn’t suffice, my heart will never be in it. I refuse to believe in needless suffering. The only way I’ve found to get me through the really trying times is to know, without question, that it’s all for a reason. If nothing stands out, I dig for it.

    All along the way, in all of our lives, love is there. It binds to us in its presence and its absence.

  3. Leandra on April 5th, 2009 10:21 pm

    As always, thank you for reading. :)

  4. Rebecca on April 7th, 2009 2:58 pm

    Just popped over from Brazen – your blog design is so pretty! Loving it and your post.

    I think place is so important and I like how you’ve tied it back to what you’ve learned. I know someone who doesn’t like Madison all that much, but I agree that there’s a time (place!) for everything.

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