Maintaining course

November 13, 2007 | Filed Under Moment of Truth, Thoughts 

The initial concept for this blog was to only look for the good in the world.  As you can imagine, the whole project was delayed because of the difficulty I experienced with this task.  “There’s just so much…bad.”  Then, I started writing, letting whatever wanted to come out come out, and as I look back, there’s so much more uplifting, positive things on this blog than their are pity parties and complaints. 

The night I watched America: Freedom to Fascism, I found myself scared and conflicted.  If all the terrible things that people are proclaiming will happen are going to happen–and I see it happening–then what?  If the end of the Earth is near, if the events in Revelations will manifest, if the New World Order is put in place, then what?  Do I continue with my plans to become an agent of what I sincerely believe is b.s., propaganda, and dumbing down or do I hightail it to somewhere remote, build an Earthship (or otherwise ecologically viable housing), and learn how to fend for myself…essentially taking the ascetic route? 

I look for meaning and purpose in everything and as both become more important in my decision-making paradigm, I tend to want to prioritize based on most important or most purposeful.  I started down that path on Saturday night as my mind flooded with options.  The funny thing is none of my original plans came to mind.  Sticking with the path that I’m on now–teaching special education English to high school students–didn’t strike me as important.  All the negative aspects of the job revealed themselves and took precedence over the positive aspects.

After tears started streaming down my face, my boyfriend reassured me that teaching isn’t b.s. and that I can still be effective and impactful in my own way, regardless of the curriculum.  He referenced his own work and said, “it’s not the most important thing in the world, but I feel like it’s what I’m supposed to be doing right now.”   

The next day, I realized the weight of his words.  All the great people that inspire me had/have hard work to do.  They don’t escape the impending doom, but continue on their paths, living the lives they’re inspired to live in spite of.  The going gets rough and they maintain; they don’t retreat and their concern isn’t only for themselves and their personal welfare.

Thank God for the quiet, still voice of the truth.

Asceticism is an easy route for an introvert. 
        One can’t live life only concerned about the doom of tomorrows. 
                 Instead, Be Here Now. 
                         Sometimes, I get so caught up in the future that I lose sight of the present and all its beauty. 
                                   Your life is your message…live it without any contingencies. 

Forget the details and go through the process.   Too many of us are caught up in the details, and consequently overlook the importance of the process.  Life being about the journey and not the destination is not new information.  Passion=Purpose.  Do what you’re inspired to do and don’t allow fear to throw you off course.  There’s a difference between changing direction and abandoning ship.  Be very clear on which course of action you take.

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