What My World's Like

(in)congruent

Oct
25

Are you who you say you are? Are you who you think you are, or who you want to be? I often like to explore the concept and believe that I am, but in reality, I’m not. In me is the range of humanity—kind, selfish, strong, weak, committed, capricious, confident, insecure, humble, arrogant, beautiful and ugly. I’m extreme, contradictory, complex. Oftentimes, I think, too extreme, too contradictory, too complex. These layers have made it difficult for me to consistently see myself honestly and positively. There are so many contradictions that even I’m sometimes left wondering who am I?

On things that don’t necessarily matter, it’s easy for me to toss an opinion around, whether it’s requested or not. However, on issues that deeply affect me, usually silence is my standard. Makes no sense. Am I outspoken or reserved?

My journey has taught me that I’m nicest to those I don’t know and more hurtful to those I care the most about. Am I kind or am I mean?

I can speak about my life, who I am—or think I am—and what I’ve learned easiest with strangers than people I’m emotionally invested in.

Why does this incongruency exist? Will the awareness of its presence create more congruency or will it persist regardless?

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A little bit of random: recent epiphanies/reminders

Mar
30
  • The dictionary will, unfortunately, never fully capture all the language we use. 
  • E. Badu’s video reminds me not to self-censor.
  • Additionally, allow others to be themselves.
  • Exchange energy with others intentionally.  Always go for the thank you, you’re welcome.
  • Trust yourself. If you don’t, start. If you do, keep on.
  • Just being in Whole Foods makes me happy. Celebrate the little things in life.
  • We all want what’s rare, so why do you appreciate common beauty more than uncommon beauty?
  • Note: stop comparing your uncommon beauty.
  • The internet and all of its social networks are microcosms of a microcosm. Don’t take it or yourself so seriously. It’s not real. Share space, air, and eye contact.
  • Live in love&light.

Monday motivation: Have you lost your muchness?

Mar
15

alice in wonderland

Tim Burton’s Alice in Wonderland entertained me last night, in addition to providing a little inspiration. As Alice fights her fate in Wonderland, Mad Hatter tells her, “You were much more muchier. You’ve lost your muchness.”

Today’s question is “have you lost your muchness?” If the answer is yes, the follow-up question is “what can you do to reclaim it?” If the answer is no, the follow-up is “Yay! Great for you,” and “what’s next?”

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LIVE!

Mar
08

Be inspired!

Mar
05

Today, I’ll be accompanying my grandmother to the hospital for some tests. Yesterday, I found out that pain she’s been complaining about is a stomach aneurism, not ulcers like she’s been saying. Also turns out, she knew.

Finding the good: we’re going to attempt making this 79 year-old woman stop smoking. May the force be with us. If we succeed, she will have finally quit and her health will improve. If we don’t succeed, we tried. I’m fortunate enough to be with her now through all of this, no matter what happens.

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Goodness in the blogosphere…

Aug
18

Are you an ingrate?

Aug
06

yourlifeisbeautiful

I had a conversation with myself the other day that went a little something like this:

“I would like to have this, that and the other.  I would really appreciate that.”

“Would you?”

“Would I?  Ye—no.”

 
No.  As it currently stands, my record is precisely not to appreciate so many aspects of my life.  I’ll be very decisive about something I want, get it, and then complain about it or take it for granted.  Either way, there’s not a lot of actual appreciation.  True appreciation is more than an intellectual concept; it requires action.  It means to value or regard highly; place a high estimate on.

How much in your life do you “appreciate” without truly appreciating?  What can you do to express the importance of the things, people, and situations in your life, even if just to yourself?

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What My World Sounds Like: Michael Jackson

Jul
02

mj22

Yeah, yeah, I know. For some, it’s overload. For me, it’s just begin. It’s my world. 😉

“Ain’t No Sunshine”
[audio:http://www.whatmyworldslike.com/audio/aintnosunshinemj.mp3]

“The Lady in My Life”
[audio:http://www.whatmyworldslike.com/audio/theladyinmylife.mp3]

“Liberian Girl”
[audio:http://www.whatmyworldslike.com/audio/liberiangirl.mp3]

“Dirty Diana”
[audio:http://www.whatmyworldslike.com/audio/dirtydiana.mp3]

Lost and found

May
29

dark-night

Sometimes you have to lose yourself to truly find yourself.

We’re always going to go through things in life that challenge us, that put us face-to-face with the idea of ourselves that we have and the real version of ourselves that we’re being. Make it all worth it by taking from it all the lessons, all the good stuff, and dropping the rest. Don’t beat yourself up. If there was ever a time to be your own friend, it’s when you feel lost. Be honest with yourself. Decide what changes you want to make and why, then hold yourself accountable.

Be with the storms

May
19

storm_clouds_over_swifts_creek

How to free yourself from the grip of storms? This is the only basic problem in this universe. The first thing is to become aware of it and stop regretting it. Like waves come and go, storms in your life too will subside. No one storm can be there for ever. One storm comes and subsides, another comes and subsides and it goes on. As the storm subsides, you experience that inner cool, soft, delicate aspect of yourself. In that space of calm, all the anxiety, fear, feverishness lose their grip on you and you become yourself again. Love dawns.

When you stop resisting the storms of life and start accepting them with open arms, they will subside on their own. That is the purpose of all spiritual practices, or sadhana, and meditation. When you realise that somebody really cares for you, you feel at rest and all fears and insecurities drop off.

You keep running away from small things — your feelings, sensations, desires — and this leads to more feverishness. Realize that like the ocean cannot be there without the waves, storms are inevitable in your life. Every storm touches you somewhere and makes you grow stronger. A storm pulls you out of your likes and dislikes and purifies you. So accept all that comes with both arms open. […] Even when the storms come, you are still the same ocean, as deep as ever.

This realization is the culmination of knowledge. When this knowledge dawns, you rise above events; you grow out of them. Everybody in the world goes through crises, insecurities, confusions. It’s like drowning in the ocean of life. But the person with the life jacket can survive even the worst turmoil. So keep your life jacket of knowledge handy.

[…] Do not be in a hurry to get rid of the storms, be with them. Looking for perfection creates imperfection inside you. If you are peaceful, everything around you becomes peaceful. You are the center of this universe. Wherever you go, you carry your own mind, and wherever you go, you will create your own storms. It may appear to be calm and quiet for sometime but the storm will surface sooner or later. Unless you realize this, nothing will hold. There is no other permanent solution. Don’t resist the storms, instead see them as an amazing play of your personality.

–Sri Sri Ravishankar

Source: iJourney.org